</3 My premium sub is gonna end soon and I have to somehow renew it again.... If I don't feel too lazy to ROFL

I'm also kinda busy recently. I'm often not at home and I go online usually through mobile only D: which is why I find it hard to update my accounts for now.

I'm in some kind of art block as well as feeling quite discouraged from cosplaying. I think I'm undergoing the usual "cosplayers' depression". Like, feeling very inferior, too ugly or unfitting for cosplay. Haha... I know I shouldn't be feeling this way because I've been cosplaying for a long time and it's too late to feel this now. But...no no. I'm not exactly feeling ugly and all. I think I'm quite pissed with some issues and drama going around and I feel like I want a break. I think I'm really shifting to photography. I'm really tempted to shift already. I could go on cosplaying but not as much as I want to just be a photographer now. I don't know I just feel sad and all. Ugh I wanna kick myself out of this unreasonable depression that even I can't explain why I'm this way.